Weird Place

Do you ever feel really weird, but don't know what's wrong? I'm in a funk right now. I don't feel like doing the usual stuff. I just want to stay home and I don't really feel like conversing a whole lot. It's really frustrating because I don't exactly know what's going on. I try to pray and and feels like my prayers hit the ceiling. I know God's there, but I don't feel Him there.

I thought maybe my loyal readers *smile* were wondering where I was, so I thought I'd reassure everyone that I am o.k. I'm just wallowing in my funky state unsure of how to get out.

Unbelievable

This is what I woke up to on Wednesday morning. I've never seen snow in June before. It's crazy and I've decided that I hate it.

The Darkness Is Crowding In

Do you ever feel like the darkness is crowding in? Do you feel like it is smothering you and making you feel like you are the only person in the world experiencing that kind loneliness and sadness? I do. Then the depression sets in. It is at that time that we are vulnerable to attacks. Attacks on our mind, emotions, and spirit. There is good news though!

"For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness." Psalm 18:28

King David wrote that after God delivered him from Saul and all his enemies. I'm sure David frequently felt alone. He had been crowned king of a country that he couldn't rule. He was on the run for his life, but David knew God was with him always.

We need to claim that in the times when the darkness is so thick we can feel it. God promised to "never leave us nor forsake us" We are never completely alone.

Are You Obesessed With Something?

I know I am. Internet, books, t.v., electronics, etc... This was the title from "My Utmost For His Highest" that I read this morning. It was amazing and really got my heart thinking. Here are some excerpts I'd like to share with you.

"The total being of our life inside and out is to be absolutely obsessed by the presence of God. A child's awareness is so absorbed in his mother that although he is not consciously thinking of her, when a problem arises, the abiding relationship is that with the mother (we know this is true). In that same way, we are to "live and move and have our being" in God (Acts 17:28), looking everything in relation to Him, because our abiding awareness of Him continually pushes itself to the forefront of our lives.
If we are obsessed by God, nothing else can get into our lives--not concerns, nor tribulation, nor worries. And now we understand why our Lord so emphasized the sin of worrying. How can we dare to be so absolutely unbelieving when God totally surrounds us. To be obsessed by God is to have an effective barricade against all the assaults of the enemy."

Isn't that amazing? I thought I'd share that with you and hopefully it helps your heart as much as it helped mine.

Advice Would Be Greatly Appreciated

My lovely baby girl Ashley is sometimes not so lovely. I will be very honest here and say she is a brat. I love her to death, but don't know what to do. She talks back, hits her brother, screams etc... I discipline, I spank and they don't seem to have an affect on her. Has anyone else experienced a problem with their child like this. I don't want her acting like this. I don't want her being the type of child that misbehaves and people don't want to be around her. I've seen children like that and it's awful. I know this is my responsibility and that is why I'm reaching out and asking for help. I would appreciate any type of advice or direction you could provide. Thanks and God bless!

7 Days and Counting

7 days until my lovely baby girl turns 2. I can't believe she is going to be 2, how fast the time has gone. I'm pretty excited for her party. I will be attempting a butterfly cake, which I've never done before. Here is a picture of the cake. I'll post a picture of the cake after I do it, I guess we'll see if it looks anything like the picture.








It is also 7 days until this wonderful little family comes to visit me. I am so excited! It has been over a year since I've seen my sister, brother-in-law, and niece. And now I get to see my new little niece! It's very exciting stuff.

This brings up new points I want to share though. I wonder if everybody feels this way. My sister coming makes me a little nervous because I'm worried that my house won't be clean or my kids won't behave well or the dinner I make will be gross. Not that my sister will judge me, but I'm worried for some reason. Does everybody worry about this kind of stuff? Isn't funny how we want to look in front of people? I guess it is all pride. Because a lot of the time my house looks cluttered with socks that my kids randomly take off and toys they like to play with and dog hair. Oh the dog hair! Sometimes my dinners don't turn out and sometimes my kids throw tantrums and yell. In the mornings I give them "frosting cookies" and fruit snacks, which in my defense in followed by oatmeal and fruit. I just want to appear my best I guess and now that I've written this down it appears silly.

Anyway, I'm ecstatic! Now that I've gotten my weird hang-up out of my head I can relax. Have a good Saturday everyone!

Video of Asher

Sorry this is so dark, but the main reason I took this video is because of the noises Asher was making. He just started this new thing where he makes noises that sound like a puppy or something. It's pretty comical, have your sound up so you can hear him. By the way Oscar (my dog) got in the way of the camera and that is who I am telling to go lay down (just in case you couldn't see him and didn't know who I was talking to).