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Showing posts with label Dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dreams. Show all posts

Thursday, September 1, 2011

I'm Just Gonna Get It Out There

I'm sure you all have dreams. Realistic ones, not so realistic ones, and ones your afraid to divulge. It's the latter I want to talk about.

I've always wanted to be a model. I'm not exactly sure why, but I have. It looked fun and glamorous and the best job ever. It's always been there in the back of my mind. It's been a dream of mine I've been afraid to tell people. I didn't even tell Derek until after we were married (I think). I'm afraid people will think I'm super good looking, or they'll think I'm too ugly to make it. I'm afraid I can't do it. There are a lot of fears built into it.

 Last September I dropped my dad off at the airport in Bozeman. We passed a outdoor fair type thing in the park and thought it would be fun for the kids. I stopped by this booth with all of these beautiful photographs. His name is Gerry and he is a wonderful person. He told me I had a great face and could be a model. I told him I'd always wanted to, but never had the opportunity. He said he would do a whole shoot for free and that I should call him and set it up. At first I was thinking creeper, but after talking it over with Derek he said I should go for it. We set it up and Derek came with me. I had so much fun! It was a blast! I had all of these different outfits and we were in such a beautiful place. Ennis, MT and Virginia City, MT are some wonderful places. If you've never you should visit, it's wonderful. Here are some photos from that shoot: 






After I got my pictures back I started researching modeling agents. I wanted to get represented, but was terrified of rejection. If I didn't try I couldn't fail. If I didn't try I also couldn't succeed. So I kept on my research. The one agency I found that was consistent was the Coravelli Modeling Agency in Bozeman, MT. I called and set up an appointment. I went in with my CD full of pictures and a lot of nerves and waited to see what she'd say. She is a wonderful wonderful person. She's so full of energy and optimism! I love being around her. I got some great news that day! She said she would sign me and she wanted to do a photo shoot so she could get me on her web site. I had my photo shoot in January and the rest is history. I haven't had a modeling job yet, but I will eventually. For right now I can honestly I say I achieved my dream. Here are some pictures that Denise has taken. She's an amazingly talented photographer.











*photos are property of Gerry Mooney and Denise Coravelli and Coravelli Modeling Agency


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Weird Dream

I haven't been that nervous for my surgery on Friday. I feel more inconvienced than anything. This is disrupting my entire life and I feel annoyed.

Last night I had a dream that they intebated me (I learned that from Grey's). I ended up swallowing the tube and I was choking. It was so real that when I woke up I felt out of breath from my "choking" experience and pain in my throat from the tube.

I guess even though I don't feel nervous I am and it's coming out in my dreams.

Just thought I'd share my funny dream with you.