Last night and today so far have been rough. Derek has been pretty sick. They are going to give him some stronger anti-nausea meds that hopefully will work better. Please pray.
Some of my personal issues are remembering to rely on the Lord. Right now I'm internalising all of this and it isn't having a good effect on my mind and spirit. Please pray that I go to God for ALL of it. I want to learn and grow all I can from this experience and so far I feel as if I'm floundering. I feel pretty isolated as well. For quite awhile now I've had Derek and my kids to take care of and now I don't. It's an odd feeling that I don't like.
When you're stay at home mom sometimes all you crave is alone time (at least for me). Or selfish time as I'm learning to see it. Now I feel like the Israelites in the desert when they got tired of manna and kept crying and complaining that they wanted meat. God finally gave it to them until it came out their noses. I'm gonna bet they got tired of meat and were satisfied with their manna. I craved alone time so much and now God has given it to me in abundance.
I'm now thankful and wistful for those packed days. Those days that revolved around meal times, nap times, grocery shopping, playing, cleaning, and most importantly loving. These are the lessons that I pray are written on my heart and remembered always.
As always, we are thankful for your prayers. I pray everyone is doing well.
God bless!
I can so relate to what you are feeling. Remember, even when you can't "feel" it God IS with you. He will provide what you need. You are so precious to Him. I will continue to lift you up in prayer.
ReplyDeleteErica I love you so much. I am so so sorry that I am not there with you right now. You are not alone as far as craving alone time. I Feel the same way. I will be praying for Derek. I will also be praying for you as well. I miss you so much and I love you so much. Everything is going to be fine. Lock your doors and your windows, look in your back seat before you get into it, turn your car off while pumping gas, wipe before standing, and always flush, lather rinse...repeat! What I can't have a mamossa at 10 o'clock in the morning??!! Oh Im not here with these fella's...Capn Geech and the Shrimp shack shooters! Ill give you 5 dollars! Go...catch a chicken. After all that I do, after all that Ive done. A ghost!
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Meggie
I think I just stepped in some Gunther! hahahahahah
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