"Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ"

~Philippians 1:6

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Joyous Remorse

We have a house! And while I'm very excited right now, my heart remains sad.

I've angry, frustrated, and irritable while waiting for a house. These emotions have been directed at God, Derek, and my other loved ones. I acted terribly. All because I didn't trust God to come through. I've seen Him do amazing things and I didn't trust Him.

I think back to how it felt when I lost the trust of somebody I loved. It hurt-bad. And I'm just a sinful human being who deserved to lose that trust. God obviously didn't do a thing to lose my trust. He sent His Son to die on the cross for me. He redeemed me. He comforts me. He keeps my children and husband safe. He provides my material needs. And I let him down because He didn't fit into my time table.

I'm deeply ashamed and remorseful. I'm just thankful He's forgiving.


  1. I second Rachel! :)

    And I'm so excited you have a house!!!

  2. What a great post. You obviously have a very humble attitude and if you can recognize your mistakes then you can repent and move forward in your relationship with Christ. You are facing the same thing that we all face. I know that I fall far short of where I should be for God every day.